As I’m typing this down, I am actually hoping that you’re not going to see this….or whatever.

I think I’ve said this a billion times already, but I still want to thank you for everything. You should know that I always remind myself this: I am so lucky to have a great friend like you. 

Someday, when I’m courageous enough, I will tell you the things I’ve always wanted to tell you. And maybe I will be too late then, so yeah, I’m sorry for the lack of audacity. 

Thank you again for everything, buddy.

As I’m typing this down, I am actually hoping that you’re not going to see this….or whatever.

I think I’ve said this a billion times already, but I still want to thank you for everything. You should know that I always remind myself this: I am so lucky to have a great friend like you.

Someday, when I’m courageous enough, I will tell you the things I’ve always wanted to tell you. And maybe I will be too late then, so yeah, I’m sorry for the lack of audacity.

Thank you again for everything, buddy.

Since nobody really comes to this blog, I thought I’d put it here.

I honestly have no idea what to do anymore. These thoughts came to me when I was drunk last night. I tried to scream it out to the sea, but nothing came out. It’s still bottled up inside. I’ve been a horrible person to pretty much everyone who cares for me.

I’m so sorry Therese that I didn’t know about your surgery and wasn’t able to visit you at the hospital. Just when you needed me most, I let you down and I’m really sorry.

I’m so sorry Liway that up until now, I can’t bring myself up to be completely honest with you. I tell myself that it’s for the best that I keep things from you for now, but I know that in the end you’ll hate me for my decisions. I’m sorry that when I meet you in the hallways, I hug you and smile like nothing’s wrong. I just can’t tell you right now, and I always feel shit when I see you cry and I know this is going to hurt you. I hope you understand. You know that I love you so much.

I’m so sorry Patch for not giving us a closure. I should have given you another chance, but I chose not to in the fear of hurting you and hurting myself. But thank you for everything, in case I forgot to tell you that. Thank you.

I’m so sorry Basco that I’m always annoying you with all the shitiness going on in my life. You deserve better than someone who complains a lot about her life. But I thank you for always being there for me. I will always be grateful to have met someone great like you.

I’m so sorry Kien that I’ve been trying my best but I still end up being a coward.

And to everyone I’ve wronged, I’m sorry.

#thoughts  

Anonymous asked: Where do you study and what degree program are you taking up?

I’m studying at University of St. La Salle and I’m taking up nursing!

In Case I’m Really Leaving

  1. Go on a road trip with friends
  2. Eat chicken inasal as much as possible
  3. Attend the festival in Cadiz or something
  4. Take loads of photos
  5. Influence at least ten people to listen to Bastille
  6. Spend as much time with friends
  7. Ask Joey out …
  8. … or at least try to find out if he’s single or not
  9. Spend my 18th birthday
  10. Tell him the truth in person
My schedule for the second semester is decidedly disgusting, so I had to make it a little bit pretty by using running-Dan as my background. Now I am more likely to survive the semester because of this. Thanks, Dan.

My schedule for the second semester is decidedly disgusting, so I had to make it a little bit pretty by using running-Dan as my background. Now I am more likely to survive the semester because of this. Thanks, Dan.

A life-changing realization at 1:34 in the morning

I was watching Bastille interview whilst waiting for my upload on Youtube to finally finish and I don’t even think you need to know the details of this very boring moment I don’t even know where I’m going with this.

Anyway, I was watching Bastille’s interview with Vertigo.Fm (I think) and there was this question about the theme of their album Bad Blood. Dan said something about not really knowing the exact central topic of the album at first, but eventually realized that it had something to do with the fear of growing up and responsibilities and whatnot.

And that’s when I had to pause the video and go over to Twitter and tweet how it all makes sense now.

Bastille has touched my subconscious.

Let’s be honest here — we’re all scared to grow up and more or less unprepared for the real world: paying taxes, finding the one true love, feeding your off-springs and sending them to school. Just typing that down terrifies the hell out of me that it might eventually happen to me one day.

A year ago, I had this terrible dream where a friend of mine died. In my hazy imagination I actually thought it meant something awful was going to happen to that person so I had to ask someone to interpret it for me. Apparently, the dream was about the “slow passing of my childhood” and me being scared of college. The message seemed to have a divergence to it that I never fully understood, but the main point is I’ve always been scared of growing up. Exactly 366 days later, a similar dream visited me in my sleep and that’s when I really sat down and thought about what it all means. Both of my dreams had something to do with me wanting to stay young forever.

So back to this video, I just realized why I have this sort of attachment to Bastille, that the moment I heard the entire album, it warmed my heart. I can’t exactly say that it was me because the lyrics are very simple but have profound and unfathomable meaning, so I guess it was my subconscious that was able to relate to it. Their songs have become my escape and at the same time answers my questions about future and stuff.

I don’t even know why I had to blog about this. I think I just feel fairly complete now because I have found a greater reason as to why I love Bastille so much.

Bastille Challenge

1. How did you find out about Bastille?
- I was making a mixed cd as a birthday gift for someone and I was looking for great songs and I stumbled upon Pompeii and decided to put it in the mix. A week later, I had their entire discography in all of my Apple devices.
2. Day/month you found them?
- April 28, 2013
3. Have you ever been to one of their gigs?
- Huhu no :-(
4. What is your favorite Bastille song at the moment?
- Icarus
5. What is your second favorite Bastille song at the moment?
- These Streets
6. Do you prefer OPH 1 or 2?
- Man, this is hard. I like tons of songs from both mixes so I’d say both.
7. What is your favorite cover from OPH 1?
- What Would You Do
8. What is your favorite cover from OPH 2?
- Thinkin’ Ahead
9. List three songs you would like Bastille to cover in the future?
- Weirdly, I want to hear them singing something by One Direction. Also, a song by Ed Sheeran or Passenger would be great.
10. List three bands/artists you want Bastille to collab with?
- Uh, Lewis Watson, Two Door Cinema Club and Lana
11. What was your reaction to Pompeii doing so well?
- I don’t know man. I think of myself as a Pompeii wanker since I first heard of Bastille when Pompeii was already mainstream. But I’m happy. Pompeii is a great song that sets different moods whenever I listen to it. It’s amazing,
12. What do you hate the most about Bastille getting famous?
- I’m scared that lots of people will know about them and will expect so much from them that eventually they’ll have to change something with their music I mean ugh I can’t even explain myself I’m just really terrified
13. What do you love the most about Bastille getting famous?
- They are able to travel the world which means that there is now 40% chance that they will be going to the Philippines. Also, it makes me really happy whenever I hear my friends say they like their songs. It feels good that other people appreciate their music.
14. The first Bastille song you heard
- Pompeii
15. Do any of your friends/family know you love Bastille?
- Yup
16. Do any of your friends/family know you have a blog/twitter dedicated to Bastille? Only my two best friends
17. Do you like Weight of Living pt. 1 or 2 better? Why?
- Sometimes I tell myself I like Pt. 2 because it sounds so festive and whatnot, and because it’s totally relevant to my college life, but sometimes I like Pt. 1 because it’s chill and idk how but it makes me happy inside. Idk man life’s hard
18. Do you know the story the albatross represents in Weight of Living pt. 1? If yes, elaborate, if no, google ‘albatross’ and be amazed.
- Yes. It’s actually on Wikipedia.
19. A Bastille song that means a lot to you?
- Icarus. I can’t exactly explain why but I’m telling you this song means the world to me.
20. A Bastille song you would to be played at your funeral?
- Haunt. I know it’s kind of a love song or something but I mean come on “I’ll come back to haunt you” how is that not relevant.

I made a cheeky little cover of Still Into You by Paramore and I used their official instrumental thingy. Enjoy!

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Still Into You (Cover) by Ariene Sings

Here’s an eco-friendly rendition of Things We Lost In The Fire by yours truly and my best buddy Therese! I know it seems like a waste of time but three minutes and thirty four seconds isn’t really that long. Be concerned of the environment and watch this!

Happy 27th, Dan Smith!!

Thank you for making really good music. I wish you good health and prosperity. Good luck on your band’s career. I love you so much.

xoxo, Ariene

P.S. Happy Bastille Day to all you French people!