Since nobody really comes to this blog, I thought I’d put it here.
I honestly have no idea what to do anymore. These thoughts came to me when I was drunk last night. I tried to scream it out to the sea, but nothing came out. It’s still bottled up inside. I’ve been a horrible person to pretty much everyone who cares for me.
I’m so sorry Therese that I didn’t know about your surgery and wasn’t able to visit you at the hospital. Just when you needed me most, I let you down and I’m really sorry.
I’m so sorry Liway that up until now, I can’t bring myself up to be completely honest with you. I tell myself that it’s for the best that I keep things from you for now, but I know that in the end you’ll hate me for my decisions. I’m sorry that when I meet you in the hallways, I hug you and smile like nothing’s wrong. I just can’t tell you right now, and I always feel shit when I see you cry and I know this is going to hurt you. I hope you understand. You know that I love you so much.
I’m so sorry Patch for not giving us a closure. I should have given you another chance, but I chose not to in the fear of hurting you and hurting myself. But thank you for everything, in case I forgot to tell you that. Thank you.
I’m so sorry Basco that I’m always annoying you with all the shitiness going on in my life. You deserve better than someone who complains a lot about her life. But I thank you for always being there for me. I will always be grateful to have met someone great like you.
I’m so sorry Kien that I’ve been trying my best but I still end up being a coward.
And to everyone I’ve wronged, I’m sorry.